August 8th and 9th

I had a hard time going to sleep last night so when the alarm went off Larry got up but I just rolled over and he let me sleep until almost 8:00 a.m.  We ate, read scriptures, said our prayers and then Larry went to the mission office to work with the Assistants.

Larry worked on recording the mileage, tiwi number, vin number, license plate number, amount of fuel for each car.  Then they decided which vehicle still needed to be pull from the fleet.  They have to pull 14 cars from the fleet by August 19th which is the next Transfer.  Then he put all the mileage log reports into the computer and then filed them.  He had milege reports for 90 cars so it took some time to do this.

I worked on cleaning our bathroom in the morning.  I was frustrated because I worked through it all and then realized that I did not have my active link on so even thought my body knows I worked I get no points for it.  HaHa the things we stress about.

I worked for a while on the blog and got things updated until the 7th and felt good about that.  But then Larry came home in the afternoon and I felt like I needed to quit for a while.  We needed to work on our finances and budget.

I spent the afternoon working out how many bills that we had and where we were in our check book.  It felt good to get it figured out but it was frustrating how tight we are.  But I cannot complain.  The Lord has blessed us abundantly with the finances we need on the mission.

After that Larry and I went grocery shopping and then read. prayed and went to bed.  I felt really good though because I had set three goals of what I wanted to accomplish and had accomplished them.  That does not happen often for me so it was very satisfying.  I felt like Heavenly Father had really blessed me.

Sunday we slept in.  We  went to church and Nathan and the kids were there.  I finally remembered to bring the the backpack I have with drawing paper and pencils and so the kids were really good.  Maggie started to go to sleep at the end of the Sacrament meeting.  So I woke her up and went to Primary with her until she woke up.  I was excited though because she finally told me that she would be okay and so I was able to go to my class for the first time in a long time.

On the way out of church the person who drives Nathan told us that he was flying to Utah the next day.  But Nathan never told us about that.

After church Nathan invited us over to the apartment to access the stuff he wants to send back to Utah.  He is going to pay for us to rent a UHaul to bring it back from our mission.  We looked at that and helped the kids change and then Larry took them back to Sara.  Unfortunately there is not room for all of our grandkids here and Larry and I in our new car so I stayed with Nathan for a few minutes until Larry took them home.

Nathan was a little irritated with me again so I was feeling frustrated so after we ate and read scriptures and had prayer we were about to go to bed and a person I called a few days ago returned my call.  Mark Lynn is a person that I know who's wife had the same type of stroke.  I asked him if he had any problems with his wife getting angry with her stroke fully expecting him to say no because I have had such a positive picture of him and his wife.  He asked me to describe what I meant and so I told him about the struggles we have had with Nathan and vice versa and he said that he was also a mental health worker  and that in his experience anyone who has a stroke goes through a period of anger and he said that both his wife and he went through it because there is anger about the changes that a stroke brings into their life and the things that are impossible to do after the stroke.  I felt such a relief.  The spirit has been telling me that tNathan's anger is not me but it was like a ton of bricks was lifted from me but I also had a lot of remorse for all the times I had got so angry at him.  He gave me some suggestions about how to get more help and then I was impressed because he told me call anytime.  I was so excited that I texted Nathan and Marcy about it and looked for the groups that he suggested on Facebook and joined them.  I suggest if you are concerned about helping Nathan in any way that you find out about some of the groups there.  I wish we had the time when we came down to do more to studying about the effects of stroke and how to help Nathan but we did the best we could.