Friday, March 18, 2016

September 23rd



Today we arose about 7:45 a.m.  Taylor was at her dads so Kirsten was not upstairs early.  I texted Maren and told her Happy Anniversary
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We had called repairmen to fix the refrigerator and the furnace/air conditioner.  The Refrigerator has been leaking water.  Larry has tried to fix it three different times.  The valve to the ice maker line is broken but he finally called someone to fix it.  He says that he called Kearsley but a person from Famous Appliance came.  The line for the ice maker was not long enough so it was broken when someone pulled it out to clean behind the refrigerator.  I was shocked that the part cost $287.00 and then the line was another $70.00.  It was Three hundred and eighty seven dollars to fix it and it seemed like an easy fix.

The furnace/ air conditioner wasn’t quite so expensive.  Larry was worried that it was not cooling so he showed him how to set the thermometer so it was okay and then he cleaned the furnace and tuned it up and it was only $49.00

We had a hard time getting going.  But at 9:00 a.m. we decided that we better be dressed and ready for the repairmen.   Maren called and was upset that they had scheduled her to work early and she couldn’t find a babysitter but Kirsten had already volunteered to go tend her kids so she would have an excuse to be away when Jon was getting remarried to his new girlfriend.

After lunch we decided to go to the temple early for today.  We had a good session.
Then we went to various businesses that have deli’s and priced what it would cost to get meat and cheese trays for Sunday.  We got so hungry that about 5:00 p.m. we stopped at McDonald’s to get something to eat.  We were impressed with their computerized kiosk that would let you make your own burger until Larry figured out that it cost $10.00 for his custom hamburger.

We came home and watched Castle for an hour and then that is when Taylor came home.

Kirsten got ready and had a whole day worth of plans for today with different friends.  She was just trying to shield herself from the hurt of Jon getting married so soon after the divorce.  She also went up today to help Maren out of a bind with her kids this afternoon.  Taylor came home a little while ago from the wedding and was pretty bummed about the day and the wedding it seemed and when Kirsten was not here she was disappointed and did not want anyone else.  She did not make a scene or anything she is just moping around and kept telling me she wants her mommy when I offer to do something for her.

We are reading scriptures in James this week and particularly the part about how it is important to bridle our tongues.  I remember that John used to tell me that I wasn’t very religious because I got so angry with him.  At the time I dismissed it as the fact that I deserved to be angry with him but after I got so angry with Nathan this year and the Spirit told me that I needed to repent and that even if someone did make me feel angry I needed to control my anger.  It is interesting that I had to live so long before I realized that when it says in the scriptures that I needed to bridle my tongue that it did mean me.

I am feeling very repentant about the whole matter.



September 19th



Today we rose about 8:00 a.m. because Kirsten was moving in about 10:00 a.m. and we had people coming from the ward to help.  We hurried and got ready and ate.

Cieli Rose today
Brian Deppe is our new home teacher so he and his son Alex showed up first.  They started helping us move the mattresses that needed moved out of the bedrooms so that Kirsten could bring in her beds.  After a while Jason Fisher and Kevin Funk came and they started to help with moving the things out of our house to take to Deseret Industries that we decided that we did not need and have it ready to put in the U Haul truck when it was unloaded.  Jon Jones came shortly after and they all worked on it until all the things that we needed moved were moved but Kirsten was not here yet.  When I called they said it would probably be about 45 minutes before they made it so everyone went home until they got here.

Larry and I had some lunch while they were gone and Larry thought he was able to fix our leaking fridge but later it started leaking again.

Kyle taken on another day
Finally about an hour and 15 minutes later Kirsten called and said that they were on their way.  Larry had just received a call from Brian wondering if they were here yet so we were able to let him know that they were coming.  Brian called some of the people that had been here in the morning and they came.  Brother Fisher brought his wife and daughter.  Brother Jones came and then Steve Allred and his son came to help also.  When Kirsten showed up first and then Landon with the Truck, we had plenty of people to help unload.  Maren and Landon, Erick, BJ and Holly also came from the family to help.  After trying to carry one box downstairs and being so slow that  I held things up I took refuge in the kitchen and unloaded some of the freezer items that they had brought.  About the time I finished that BJ and Holly showed up with Cieli so I decided that my job could be holding Ceili for a while.

Holly thought Cieli should be wanting a nap so I was rocking her and she probably would have gone to sleep.  I asked Holly to bring me a soda that I had opened and as soon as Cieli saw that she was not in the mood to go to sleep any longer even thought I did not give her any.

Older picture of Nathan's kids
It was a fun time to see everyone.  I think they were all through and gone about 2:30 p.m.  They set up all the beds but we have a real mess to go through.  After talking to Kirsten for a while we decided to go and return the U Haul.  After that we decided to go to her apartment to get the food that she had left in the refrigerator there.  Larry had been craving a drink from the drink machines that you can pick what you want and then add flavoring to it and they have one at Wendy’s and so we went there to get a drink.

When we got back we decided it was time to eat so we sliced some of the tomatoes and cucumbers that Kirsten brought and ate the roast beef that Larry had been cooking in the crockpot all day.  It was yummy.

As we have TV now I laid down and started flipping channels trying to find something.  We finally settled on Bones.  Kirsten watched one with us and typed some job applications on the computer but then she went to visit her friend Carrie to watch a movie.  We watched a couple of Bones episodes and then started looking for the BYU game.  When we found the channel it said it was being broadcast at 10:30 p.m.  We are not that dedicated so we read scriptures and said our prayers and Larry went to bed but I stayed up for a while to work on the blog.  Busy day!!!

September 13th



Ellie birthday morning
Today is Ellie’s birthday and she woke me up at about 7:30 a.m. this morning.  She and Max came in and when I said good morning, Ellie said, “Everyone else has said Happy Birthday, Grandma!”  So I told her Happy Birthday.  It is so good to have them here in our home to celebrate her birthday and it is so good that they would finally stay overnight with us.

waiting for the guests
Maren, Brinlie, Landon, Ellie
We got up and Maren and Landon made Eggs and Bacon and Pancakes for Ellie’s birthday.  Larry and I stuck to our diets except for the Bacon.  It was good to be back where I had some food storage as every time they needed something I wasn’t sure where some of it was.

Starting the "tea" party
Larry and I were disappointed that they would stay home from church to get things ready and that they would go to purchase things on Sunday but they are Adults and they know how we feel.

Shirley Gentile, Kallise, Maren, Guage, Heather, Ryker, Taylor,
Larry and I went to church and it was good to be back in our home ward but also bittersweet as we had made so many friends in the Woodlake ward.  They mentioned in both Sacrament and in Relief Society and Priesthood that we were home from our mission.  There were so many youth that had grown into young adults and it was hard to recognize them.

For Sacrament they talked about having moral values in a world moving away from those values and how they can bring you to Christ.  They all gave good talks but Diane Standing talked about how Keeping the Sabbath day Holy can bring you closer to Christ and his values.  It was such a good talk that I ask her for a copy of it.

Moral Courage through Christ in a Divided World

President Monson has said, "We live in a world where moral values have in great measure, been tossed aside, where sin is flagrantly on display, and where temptations to stray from the straight and narrow path surround us. We are faced with persistent pressures and insidious influences tearing down what is decent and attempting to substitute the shallow philosophies and practices of a secular society.

Because of these and other challenges, decisions are constantly before us which can determine our destiny.  In order for us to make the correct decisions, courage is needed--the courage to say no when we should, the courage to say yes when that is appropriate, the courage to do the right thing because it is right."

The word courage is defined as "mental or moral strength to ...persevere, and withstand danger, fear, or difficulty."

The quiet, inner tests of courage we may face are things like remaining faithful when no one's looking...like standing alone when you're misunderstood., doing the right thing even though we may be afraid, defending our beliefs at the risk of being ridiculed, and maintaining those beliefs even when threatened with a loss of friends or of social status, of being disapproved and unpopular.

While speaking at Family Conference, President Uchtodorf pointed out that "We need only to open a newspaper to realize that we are living in a cynical time.  Trust in public institutions corporations, and organized religion is declining.  Almost daily, media reports describe the decline of moral decency and the erosion of basic ethical conduct.

In this time of uncertainty, mistrust, fears, rumors of war, and political road rage, is there still hope of integration and openness across different cultures, different religions, societies, and political interests?  Is there still hope for virtue, moderation, and divine moral principles?

I believe one reason for today's decline in moral values is that the world has invented a new, constantly changing, undependable standard of moral conduct often referred to as "situational ethics"  Some consider good and evil adjustable according to their own situation and interest.  They wrongly believe that there is no divine law and, therefore, no sin."

Elder Alexander B. Morrison notes that in spite of clear expositions given on the brotherhood of man and the fatherhood of God, deep divisions of race, ethnicity, politics, economic status, and culture still separate people the world over.  These divisions corrode, corrupt and destroy relationships between neighbors and prevent the establishment of societies without contention.

Even 40 years ago Elder Mark E. Petersen boldly pointed out society trifling with the Lord's commands:  He says, "It is no trivial thing to reject Almighty God, either by show of indifference or with malice aforethought.  The divine words still echo in our ears: "Trifle not with sacred things"(D&C 6:12)

His commandments are clearly set forth.  His standards of morality, honesty, and the other virtues are well known.  But sadly enough they are noted more for their rejection than for their acceptance.  Does this mean that desolation might come upon us in some form?

Why should legislatures condone immorality, whether homesexual or otherwise?
 Why should officers of state condone vice and even protect it?  Why should lawmakers--why should the courts--oppose prayer and reading of the scriptures, doing so in the name of the constitution of this land, where we daily affirm, "In God is our trust"?  Are they for Christ or against him in this Christian land?  Can there be be any neutrality with respect to God?  Christ says no!  We are either for him or against him (see Matt 12:30)

Why should legislatures favor a wholesale violation of the Sabbath day and defeat Sunday closing laws?  Why should so-called Christian peoples put up with it?

Almost like children, we fret over our fuel shortages and other inconveniences.  We resent restrictions upon our pleasure-seeking activities.  Why don't we admit like grown men and wormen that rejection of God is at the very root of all of our troubles?  Why do we refuse to wake up to the facts in our situation?  Why must we blindly plunge on into catastrophe?

Should we not take right and proper steps to overcome our conflicts, our crimes, and all of our corruptions?"

For Strength of Youth contains the following counsel, approved by the First Presidency for the youth of the Church: "You are responsible of the choices you make.  God is mindful of you and will help you make good choices, even if your family and friends use their agency in ways that are not right.  Have the moral courage to stand firm in obeying God's will, even if you have to stand alone.  As you do this, you set an example for others to follow."

So agreed.  Life is full of trials, oppositions, divisions and choices.  And we are expected to overcome these and do so courageously.

All well and good.  We need to have Moral Courage through Christ in a Divided World.  But how?  How are we supposed to do this?  How are we supposed to build the strength and determination and inspiration to stand against the world?  Given any situation posed in Sunday School we know what we should do.  The answers are easy.  But what happens when we step outside the chapel, outside the classroom, outside the posed situations where does the courage come from?

President Eyring notes that "One of the purposes of mortal life is to prove to God that we will keep his commandments, especially in moments when that takes courage.

We have great helps to give us courage in this life.  The greatest is the atonement of Jesus Christ.  We can renew that blessing when we partake of the sacrament in faith and with a repentant heart. 

Spiritual gifts are another help.  We receive the Spirit of Christ at birth.  That gives us the power to know when a choice before us would lead toward eternal life.

God has given us more than enough help to banish fear and give us courage whatever we may face in life."

Ulysses Soares a member of the presidency of the Seventy, further emphasizes the importance of Spirit.  He recounts, I recall that each time my companion and I set out to try to prove something to people, the Spirit of God left us and we felt totally lost and confused.  We felt that we should more strongly align our testimonies with the truths of the gospel we were teaching.  From that time on , I remember that when we bore a testimony with all our hearts, a silent confirming power coming from the Holy Ghost filled the room, and there was no space for confusion or discussion.  I learned that no evil forces exist that are capable of  confusing, deceiving, or subverting the power of a sincere testimony of a true disciple of Jesus Christ."

So we have the atonement, the Spirit of Christ, and testimony confirmed by the Holy Ghost.

Back again 40 years to Marke E. Peterson's comments:  "As we receive baptism, we enter a covenant to serve God.  As we partake of the sacrament of the Lord's Supper, we again enter into covenants to serve him, to keep his commandments, and to always remember him.

As we receive baptism, we enter a covenant to serve God.  As we partake of the sacrament of the Lord's Supper we again enter into covenants to serve him, to keep his commandments, and to always remember him.

In the sacrament we seal our covenant by partaking of the sacred emblems of the Crucifixion.  Literally, then, as we partake, do we not pledge to keep each and every commandment, and do we not confirm that pledge by eating of the broken bread and drinking from the cup?

What does the broken bread represent?  The torn flesh of Christ!

What does the cup represent? His blood shed on the cross in the midst of suffering of infinite proportions, suffering which made himself, even God, the greatest of all, to tremble because of pain and to bleed at every pore and suffer both in body and spirit (see D&C 19:18)

The Atonement was the most important thing that has ever happened.  It is by virtue of the Atonement that we pledge obedience to our Father in Heaven.  We promise not only to live the Gospel in a general way, but specifically to keep the individual commandments.

As we take the broken bread, for example, do we not say to God that by this sacred emblem which we eat, we agree to keep the Sabbath day holy?

Or do we not affirm before heaven that we here and now pledge to pay a full tithing, as another example, and seal our promise by partaking of the sacrament?

Do our covenants have such a specific meaning?  I ask you could they mean anything less?"

Recently, in his parting remarks as President of BYU-Idaho, Elder Kim Clark shared "the most important counsel" he could give graduates,

"Keep the world out of your heart and the Holy Ghost in it.

Keeping the world out of one's heart is not easy.

There is all around us now, and there will be all around us in the days ahead, diabolical 'shafts in the whirlwind,' cunning devices, lying craftiness, subtle deception, flattery, doctrines of devils and commandments of men, he said.  "These are all designed to tempt you, deceive you, turn you away from Christ, and bring you down to destruction by getting the world into your heart."

The sure way to keep the world out of one's heart and the Holly Spirit in it is through the Sabbath and the sacrament.

If you will observe the Sabbath day to keep it a holy day and if you will partake of the sacrament in a spirit of love, remembrance, and commitment, your faith in our Heavenly Father and in his Son the Lord Jesus Christ, will increase.  You will keep the world out of your hearts and the Lord Jesus Christ will bless you with his Spirit."

So the atonement, with the weekly reminding ordinance of the Sacrament, the Spirit of Christ, testimony with the confirmation of the Holy Ghost, and Sabbath day observance will help us build our moral courage.

In the General Authority training on Sabbath Day Observance, the following goals were identified.  The Sabbath, specifically Sacrament meeting, is to fortify us spiritually.  It is an opportunity to develop deeper understanding of the bread and water.  It allows us to participate in an ordinance that is uniquely repeated on our own behalf.  It is a day of rest and contemplation.,  And a day to build family relationships and ties.  And this, the Sabbath, is very important, important enough to train the general authorities and then us.

With this emphasis on the Sabbath in mind, it was interesting to me to discover its connection to moral courage.

It all seems to come down to keeping the Sabbath day holy.

When I was given this topic I chuckled to myself.  It seemed laced with a bit of irony.  I don't identify with the courageous and have recognized the dangers I face of being easily swayed by smooth words, division scares me.  I don't like conflict or confrontation, especially when it comes to things dear to me.  So challenges to my beliefs, my family, my testimony, my knowledge of what is right and wrong, are not things I enjoy at all, and I really work hard to avoid that.  So where is my courage?

The discovery that my Sabbath day worship is bolstering my moral courage in Christ is a deep sweetness.  I understand that by partaking of the Sacrament I am acknowledging one of the most important things that has ever happened:  the Atonement.  And by virtue of the Atonement I pledge obedience to our Father in Heaven and not just to live the Gospel in a general way, but to specifically keep the individual commandments.

How else am I going to do this but through Sacrament attendance.  Those keeping the Sabbath day holy are more likely to attend their meetings, thereby partaking of the Sacrament. Those partaking of the Sacrament are more likely to contemplate the Atonement and its meaning and repent.  Those attending meetings are more likely to pray more often, study the scriptures, listen to the words of modern-day prophets, those attending meetings hear and share and build testimony.  Because they are following the counsel to meet together often, those attending meetings are less likely to cause divisions among the saints, but rather embrace and perpetuate the continuity of the gospel.  Sabbath Day observance leads to understanding what commandments we have been given and thereby enables us to keep them.  Those who keep the Sabbath are more likely to understand Heavenly Father's plan for them, thereby seeing the big picture which will help them avoid the swirling winds and mists of darkness that a divided world presents.

I have a real testimony of this gospel.  I am constantly learning and trying hoping in faith to live in a better world, understand that that world begins with me."

Kirsten, Ellie, Maren, Even Gentile opening presents
After Church all of our families in Utah came for Ellie's party so it was fun to see all of the kids and grandkids  again.  They had a fun party for Ellie complete with fake tea party and Pinata and it was good to be together with our family in Utah again.






Brinlie attacking pinata

Scampering for the candy
Max and Gauge with a hat full of candy

Wednesday, March 16, 2016

September 11th

Maren sent me a picture today of the bike that they bought Ellie for her birthday.

September 10, 2015



Today I got up about 8:00 a.m. but Larry did not want to get up yet.  So I let him sleep so he could get feeling better. 
 
I read Facebook and ate breakfast and then got ready to go to a 9:45 a.m. doctors appointment with Dr. Lee.  Before I left the insurance called to verify my address for the Humana Prescription Plan that I have signed up for since we moved back to Utah.
 
The doctor listened to all my complaints about my leg and my light headedness and my feeling overcome with shakiness and said he thought that I just needed to exercise more and get back into a good routine.  He filled my prescription for Tramadol and that was it.  So I guess all the stuff I have been feeling is nothing.  Some times I feel like Dr. Lee thinks that I am a hypochondriac.

I went and bought Larry something for breakfast at McDonalds and took it home to him.  He was up watching the Church movie, “How Rare a Possession”  So I got some things to eat and watched the end with him.

Kirsten came at the end to bring us a payment on some money that we had lent her and then hung around for a few minutes to see about beds that we have for when she moves.

Larry and I went into the bedroom after and read our scriptures and spent some time just laying there on the bed talking.  Then Larry got a call from his PA that he went to the day before saying that his X-ray did not show pneumonia so she was worried that he might have a heart problem that was being masked by his diabetes symptoms so she told him that he ought to come down to the Emergency Room and have them do some cardiac tests to make sure.  So we jumped up and got ready to go and I drove because she said that he should have his wife drive him.

At the Hospital they did several tests and finally determined after about three hours that Larry had an upper respiratory infection and that he was fine other than that.  Then he wanted to take the time to get his C-Pap machine updated so we went in a few circles before we found the office where we did that.  He was happy to get that done.

We both were hungry and needed restrooms so we stopped at Burger King on 4th south and got us some dinner as it was about 5:00 p.m. by now.

We got home and spent about 2 hours unpacking boxes of things that had been packed up from the house and getting them put away.  We have decided that we have to much of somethings and so we are going to pack it up and give it to DI or throw it away.

We read our evening scriptures and as we were finishing up Maren called.  She had called me while we were at the hospital and she was concerned about Larry.  We get to tend her dog this weekend while they go to the funeral for Landon’s Grandma, Jean Wilken, who died on Monday after a lingering illness.  She and the kids are coming down early tomorrow so we can visit before they have to go to Roosevelt.  That will be great as we have not seen each other yet because Maren couldn’t be at Grandma’s party because of previous plans with Landon’s family going on a campout.  So, I am looking forward to that.

Well I am finally tired enough to go to bed so I am going to do that.