February 25th and 26th

Friday was kind of a lazy day.  Nathan had his physical therapy in the morning.  Larry and I read our scriptures and we are trying to say a prayer before we read so that we can understand them better.  Elder Oaks promised that we would understand the scriptures better if we would pray before reading.  I have found that we tend to discuss what we are reading more as we read after we pray.  And we can see things by the spirit that we have not seen before. We are reading the Doctrine and Covenants right now along with the curriculum for Sunday School and also the information about President Hinckley's teachings.  I have had a lot of fear since my stem cell transplant and I ask Heavenly Father to help me not to fear.  Basically I feel like Satan is going to get me.  Today we read

4. Wherefore, meaning the church, thou shalt give heed unto all his(the Prophet's) words and commandments which he shall give unto you as he receiveth them, walking in all holiness before me;

5 For his word ye shall receive, as if from mine own mouth, in all patience and faith.

6 For by doing these things the gates of hell shall not prevail against you; yea, and the Lord God will disperse the powers of darkness from before you, and cause the heavens to shake for your good, and his name’s glory.

Basically this scripture says that if we do what the Prophet teaches us that Satan can have no power over us!! It was a marvelous moment to read that and realize what it said that I had never realized before.

After we showered on Friday and Nathan got home and we had lunch, I worked on the budget for a while and then Larry and I decided to go down to get the mail.  I was hoping that Larry felt like walking. But he was afraid it was too far.  So we rode to the mailbox and went to the grocery store to get some things that we had run out of .  Larry did much better this week at the grocery store.  He was able to stay with me the whole time.  We took the food and went home.

I started working on the budget again while watching Bones.  Larry and Nathan were in their bedrooms watching other things.  So much for the Technology generation!  After an hour I started dinner when I was hungry.  I have had a lot of pain this week before it is time to take my pain pills so I find myself eating when I am in pain to compensate.  We had a good dinner.  Watching Bones until we were to the end of the series on Netflix.  It ended with a hanging end so that was frustrating.  It was frustrating so I sat down to work on the budget for a while because it was only about 6:30 p.m.  I continued to work on the budget and realized that Larry had fallen asleep in his clothes.  I let him sleep until I got to a stopping point about 10:00 p.m.  Then I woke him up by taking off his stockings.  Of course doing that woke him up but that way he was able to get his medications and insulin and get ready for bed.

The VA gave Larry some compression stockings and they have been wonderful in helping him to keep his ankles from swelling.  He says they are comfortable but today he wore some different shoes to church and he had problems walking because his shoes were too big with those stockings on.  But he was also having problems with his balance at the end of church so that was worrisome.

Today in church they talked about Primary and the importance of children and our teaching them to carry on the gospel to the next generations.  One thing that I regret in raising my children is that I didn't spend more time with them and listen better and teach the gospel better.  But I did the best I knew how at the time and I felt like I was doing a good job at the time but then I watch young mothers ignoring their children while they talk and I realize that I am seeing me when I was younger.  I think the hard thing about growing older you have learned beyond where you were at a younger time and you always want to tell others what you have learned.

It is cloudy and it is supposed to rain today.  It is really humid.  I have been so hot.

I grilled steaks for lunch and for once they were perfect!!  It was such a good feeling.

Nathan put on Mormon Channel today and it is great to listen to the truths of the Gospel of Jesus Christ while I type.